Initiation into Self Mastery

One way to better understand and overcome the challenges of human domestication process in this human dream we call life can be an initiation, transforming us from a personal “mental” way of operating to a "heart/mind” way of being.  The purpose of this Self Mastery Initiation, which happens as you deepen in this work, is to awaken the wise elder in each of us to a deeper sense of the dual nature that lives within us and consequently lives life in balance.      

Through this representational second birth, a person can become sensitively aware of the human duality of the “feminine” and “masculine” energies that exist in each human.  This duality can be experienced in the material mind sense and in the heart's deeper knowing.  Through this new depth of awareness, we can more fully participate in the dream of humanity and eventually become the elders in our community.

Elders are those who, because of their life experiences, can see many sides of any issue.  These elders, after owning and healing many of their own wounds, can sense the fear and limited motives in others and can guide them into owning and healing wounds from their individual human domestication.  These elders set an example for others just by living the teaching.

When working with the Toltec model for Self Mastery, the initiation of the mind into the higher mental and emotional self brings about a process of energetic shift; out of the mind of fear and control to a higher and deeper knowing heart/mind.  This is reached through a willing vulnerability and a dawning, deepening self-awareness. 

The initiation can be ruthless.  It has no mercy with the “victim” that exists in the initiate who has chosen this mysterious passage into the unknown.  The mind thinks it is losing control of all it believes, knows, values, and appears to control. The mind endures torture and agony, almost as if the individual is losing total control of their faculties and becoming powerless.  In fact, what is actually happening is the mind is giving way to a higher purpose that has deeper wisdom than the mind.

This is when the student of life establishes the mutation processes of change, moving from the limited mind, to surrendering to Spirit, into the greater unlimited part of each.  The student discovers there is something much more powerful than their own mind and self-control.  This process will eventually take the initiate through a place of not knowing, beyond mind limitation.

The first sign of movement in this process is an unpleasant feeling of apprehension or distress, often referred to as “fear.”  When this fear is not acknowledged by the mind it may be projected onto others in forms of blame or victim stance, and sometimes its projected inward in blaming us, and some do both.  Fear may also create realistic manifestations that can also be felt in the physical body. 

If this feeling of fear is gently followed within, it can lead the initiate into surrendering the “little self,” also known as the ego, image, or mask, into a higher and deeper sense of one's own truth.  In this new status, one is not separate from anything or anyone. There is no awareness of separation between “them and us,” or “he and she.”  Everything and everyone is included in this human dream of life. 

To each individual making this initiation into the unknown, it can be very frightening and at the same time, very different for each individual.  It holds no boundaries for the Parasite within that lives on fear and pretense.  This incomprehensible state of “being out of control,” can be overwhelming to the mind living in fear and at the same time very liberating to the initiate seeking freedom from that same fear and limitation that took them there in the first place. 

Once one crosses the threshold of what appears real and passes the initiation phase of what may feel like death to the old illusion based on fear and control, a new challenge appears for the initiate.  They may want to hold this beautiful new truth in their new dream called life.  For those that have navigated this mysterious solo journey and initiation, you can be assured that you will be tested in staying in this place of truth, your Truth, over and over again.  This is the journey.

As most can verify that have gone through this auspicious initiation, the initiate is admitted to a special group of humans that carry a new and deeper responsibility to Self.  This change happens in the mind's awareness and it will reach a physical, emotional, and deeper cellular level, unique to that human being and the lessons brought about in this lifetime.

Don't give up, know your "duality," be aware of “self,” be patient, live from your balance, forgive, endure and stay with the love and in time, your time, you will be gifted by Spirit.