Laoise

Dear Don Luis,

Doing this apprenticeship to the Toltec way of life through you has been the most important opportunity of my journey so far. I am rediscovering excitement, creativity and the magic in life.

This teaching has taught me that we have two choices in life. We can turn inward and look inside for the answers or we can look outside of ourselves. I see the choices I made in the past - blame, project, hide - deny that anything is happening, mostly looking outside. Through this teaching I have learned that everything is within. Thus, everything I need to heal and transform my life is within. Life is about growing and learning through all our ups and downs, and through the things I deemed to be wrong with my life. I now see nothing is wrong, it just is, but everything is an opportunity for transformation. So through the Toltec way of being my choice is to take every limited pattern and look at myself with compassion, but then not hide anymore, don’t deny, project or ignore; now I take these things by the horns and look, and look again and really see!

Along each step of our work together through the apprenticeship, I feel myself getting lighter. The layers of pain and control that have piled on over my life time are gently being stripped away. There have been difficult times but the support I have received from you Luis has helped me stay on track. When I project outside of myself you gently turn me to face myself. Through this my relationships with my beloved and my family are being transformed. They are changing from being ones of control and co-dependency to ones of respect and acceptance. I was staying in a job I was not happy in out of fear and through this apprenticeship I found the courage to leave and do something I love. The fear of the unknown is transforming into a trust of myself and what will happen. I was someone who had no connection to animals, I now am a person who has a huge love for animals and I am now open to receive their love and I am open to what they can teach me.

One of the main realisations for me was to see this healing road as a never ending process. I was always waiting and wondering when I would be ‘fixed’. I have learned to have patience, that it is not a race to the finish line, it is a journey and each moment on that journey is to be tasted and savoured.

Thank you Luis for your authenticity. Thank you for being my teacher. Thank you for the trust, patience, love and acceptance you have shown me. Through your example I am learning to trust myself, have patience with myself, to accept myself and most importantly to Love myself and once I can do this for myself I can be this way with all around me.

Most importantly I have come to realise that life is about an expansion of consciousness, I am learning to leave contraction behind, to step out of the limited box and step into the unlimited life that is freedom, and love for myself and others. I have come to understand we create our reality, we always have a choice, whatever dream I desire it is up to me to bring it into reality, but >all is possible. And here is where the magic lies…

Grá agus Meas,
Laoise